Sex on the beach vs oozing chocolate souffle

In a perfect world, I would not wake up in the morning, even for morning sex with a very beautiful woman. But it’s not a perfect world and I am not always able to manipulate my supervisor at work to give me perfect evening shifts. I am tired, my eyes hurt its only 9:00pm my brainwaves are slowly emitting the subsonic waves that the brain cell receptors are not able to decode, forget decode they are not even receiving the signals. I want to talk of food.

During the first four hours at work this morning, which was slow and dragging, I thoroughly enjoyed reading the Harvard business review.  Several articles were able to keep me focused and interested and made me aware of several ideals. I dont know where i got this in my head from but I wanted to relate for and sex together and create sexy food. We have thai, we had asian, we had organic, well lets not forget the ever yellow curry. But sexy food is not something we see very much of.  Given there is the chocolate covered strawberries on valentine’s day, some caviar, cheese and wine and grapes now and then but, I am talking main stream sexy. The names of dishes are sexy, the food itself is delicious and sexy, the plate its set on is sexy and the way its set on the plate is a salsa of oozing white chocolate out a soufflé; salsa here is not spicy but a sexy dance of white chocolate with the components of the souffle.

             I am not a food genius, but I think the idea is amazing, I am sure several people have already conjured up restaurants as I speak and have some of the sexiest dishes going on there...but I feel the trend for sexy food is just about to hit the highway. Gen X is retiring slowly with a vast amount of wealth which they want to enjoy, hey sexy food sound good to you...and the current generation is trying to be successful at a young age, leading to very little time to really find the balance of passion and recreation and their ever demanding careers. Why not take the girlfriend out to a sexy dinner, may be it will lead to something fun later in the evening.  Most girls try the drink ‘sex on the beach” for the first time just because the name of the drink excites their minds and bodies in a particular way ( I did not make that up ) just ask a girl to think about sex on the beach.  Let’s get back from fantasizing and here to slice and dice the idea of sexy food.  Disney creates magic through its parks and services, but have we ever heard of Disney having amazing food.  Except for the few top class restaurants which are not even part of Disney but owned and operated by a third party, I feel Disney only has Turkey legs as its signature item. Lets make magic with food, lets create passion from it, let it make us alive. Dinner does not always have to micro-waved neither does it have to be a fat piece of meat with sauce on it. Tough it might provoke images in some of our minds, I don’t think its sexy. I love colors in food, meat can only deliver so many colors, burnt - black, well done- brown, chicken - white, raw meats - red, raw poultry - yellow. Did I miss any races, sorry I meant colors. Leaves and vegetables should constitute an important part of every meal, Sea food, flowers, fruits are an amazing way to add excitement, zing and the seductiveness exotic items can deliver.

Too tired, continue soon, I will try conjure up some pictures of sexy food and give them some sexier names and come back and post, till then crave it like you want it bad.                                          

Floating Point

is this photoshopped or is it real?

Books, internet, people and all other forms of media have polluted our minds with an information overdose...although we are able to receive a lot of good information from these forms, it is still very difficult for us to sort these massive quantities of information through are virus infected minds...from the time we walk into schools or even when we are young children learning very basic shapes and colors our minds are being incessantly being infected with viruses...our parents are to blame for much of it and then we can pass on the rest of the blame to ourselves...learning to distinguish between what is good and what is bad and what exists and what practically is illusion has become very difficult for us today...one of the easiest example is that of money...in reality money is just printed paper but again in reality money is everything you may just need to survive and demand respect from this blind society...when a country needs more money they can just print some but that will not make any country that much richer...the illusion or perception of what its value is what makes money valuable...there are so many things that do not exist and is just a figment of our imagination that has turned itself to reality...more like the monster from under the bed that we always thought would come out has turned real and is out there to get us...how is a product better than the other, how is a person better than another one, how is a country better than another...a deadly virus or a massive swarm of viruses have infected us to think and see and understand things that way...do we really think with our minds or do we think with the advertisements and what people say are good...I am hoping to goto a school in the future and do my masters, but which school is good, well the one that has massive amount of publicity already with a large alumni and credibility...but is it going to change me as a man or is it only going to lead me to better opportunities or is it just an illusion of opportunities we call luck...only difference would be the amount of load put on us in a course and the different items we might learn and the pressure we are put through...but again is that really something another school cannot do or reproduce, or are the professors in these schools the only ones that can do that as they were handpicked by the lord...how do we decide with such a polluted mind, how do we find out what is worth our efforts with these viruses blocking our natural pathways to a positive conclusion...am i just a floating point without a destination...how am I to answer that when I do not know how to distinguish what is real and what is reality.

Irreversible Logic

Much of what we learn and take pride in while boasting it out to others is just simple reading from recent years...our brains do not seem to pull out and process old stored information unless we really scratch once or twice and tickle the brain to remember what we probably read in the past...the more we read the more we are able to understand the logic behind several things...a good book on psychology will help anyone understand some of the ways we behave and the rationale behind it..a good read on self motivation will most likely motivate us and give us that extra boost we sometimes need to move forward...reading a variety of material can help us understand how several things that happen around us is only information that we can process and sort out the root cause or usually compute a perfect outcome...it seems like we are able to predict the future or just say what is going to happen next or why some particular incident happened and redraw the scene...logic is irreversible(personal opinion)...it is usually easy for me to stay calm in a situation is because I can simply create a neural map of what has happened what is happening and what the possible outcomes can be...it is also important to take into consideration the several reasons that led to what has happened...usually there would be several small incidents that would lead to one massive event, much like the way plane crashes happen where several small hiccups in the system, communication and the physical assembly seem to cooperate together and lead to calamity of sorts...this post is for me and has a message hidden away in it for me for future reference...to most it will probably not make much sense...but there were several small reasons that led me to write this...

Complexity

The solution to a good depression for me is probably cleaning my moms kitchen...the oil, spices and the magical ingredients required to make curries do have its long term greasy effects on the stoves, and oven and the kitchen in general...a good scrubbing, wiping, moping and polishing everything to make them shine does help one deviate from current stress related thoughts to a stressful cleaning...scrub your stress away...it is the same old monotonous dialogue of mine...I dont know what I am suppose to do with my life...I think I have some options but they keep shutting themselves on my face and then I have to barely make it again and get on another path and start from scratch and after a few seasons scratch that and start again...Its not really helping me get anywhere...and everyone keeps telling me I am suppose to be somewhere in life...it has become very difficult for me to focus on anything and really put set my mind to it...options sometime confuse people rather than giving them choices for a better deal...I wish I had an algorithm to calculate opportunity cost...and a magic dice that I would roll to decide what I should do next...there are so many things I dont understand...there are so many things I feel are unfair and so many things I would like to complain about...but unless I find solutions for them myself no one seems to care...I am not really enjoying life being so mysterious with me but again living is a complexity in itself...

Paradigm Shift

The Old building at Penn State

About ten years back I used to be good at mathematics and also spellings, if you asked me how to spell a complex word I would probably surprise you and spell it correctly in my very Indian accent and also solve complicated differential equations so quickly that you would think I was destined to be a Nuero physicist...honestly at this point of time I am not aware if that is a logical word or if people are really called that...but none the less it sounds very intellectual to me...enough of the thesis...I have failed myself...the paradigm has shifted...I am horrible at spellings and I cannot solve simple arithmetic problems in which you basically have to reconstruct a few sentences to reach a simple logical answer...Although I am able to understand english a bit better...it makes sense...I actually understand what I read and can decipher the inner meaning and formulate logical combinations of thoughts and assumptions the author probably made while writing that passage or book or essay...tough ten years back I didnot really understand anything I read...I passed my classes because I remembered everything and practically threw up whatever I remembered on the examination papers...recently I was able to visit a friend of mine, a brilliant chap who is doing his PhD in physics...yes he plays with radioactive material and sits nets to women that dont seem attractive tough they might be of age...must be the strong electromagnetic fields they create from their brainwaves through immense research that keeps repelling young men from them...while visiting my friend at penn state, I was strongly inspired to seek education again, I felt that even if life decided to fail me, education would never leave my back...and that is when I realized, I cannot do math...well solution, grade eight math book...I have about a week to complete the book and then grade 9 and 10 to follow the following weeks...hopefully that will help me jump start my memory and wake up my decaying brain cells where I stored my math logic...kind of like the rusty bike you throw away somewhere in your garage and take out a few years later...statistical analysis of data...

Redneck Riviera

Recently i had the pleasure to visit one of my favorite people...maresa...a girl I met by chance during my first days at college who i wish to keep as one of my best friends for life... her family moved from the burning dusty heat of Arizona to the bayous, tornadoes and rednecks...I loved every moment i was able to spend at their place and learn about so many new things...see beautiful towns and places all of which looked like an artist painted them in pastel, the sand dunes the sunset, the algae filled emerald bay...it was beautiful...her mom n dad was very kind and wonderful to take me around and show me all these nice things and places...and i loved the conversations and fun times I had...we saw a lot of people from down south...they all looked the same to me...like one of those times when you get off the plane in Japan and everyone looks like mr miyagi san...or the girls look like characters out of your favorite anime...life was very different there than how it is in new york...buildings were small...people drove a lot more tough traffic seemed to be a lot less...and funny part for me...most of them spoke english, unlike here at new york where i am losing my qualifications as a bachelors degree holder from a school where the language of communication was english...maybe i will have to take the toefl examination again before i am allowed to apply to another american school...fort walton was beautiful...a lot of army folks, a lot of rich folks a lot of folks that just say folks...alligator sausage bites...fancy little artist stores, home made salsa, bike rides, deadly rooted plants, water, sand, beach, photos, laughs ,long drives over the bridge, getting shades of brown on my brown skin...yes it was all these and more at the redneck riviera with one of my sweetest friend, who i wish good luck to for her future endeavors, trials and triumphs in life...

i quit...

those who know me well are aware of the meaning of the title " i quit "...over the past year that i did not post to my blog, i have spent time learning about people, cultures, money and philosophy...i have yet to become master at any of these subjects but none the less the experience is/was amazing...recently i have quit several things...starting with the very famous “facebook”...i felt the social network was making me anti social...i rarely spoke to new people and only bothered to check on the pictures of my friends who i never really spoke to perhaps for years...so just in case another facebook sort of item showed up i would not have any new friends to add to that but perhaps migrate my old friends from facebook many of who i wasn’t very friendly with...i have also quit alcohol after realizing i had enough sins under my belt to buy me a mansion in hell i quit...a bit too late perhaps but better now than never...i have also quit talking to some people that were at one point very special to me...cuz it was just too difficult for me to be free with such commitments and progress in life...i have also quit my well paying job...for reasons more than one i would not go into why i quit that...but i have...i got rid of much of my clothes and shoes and donated them to salvation army...i have quit going to bed late and started to wake up early...if there is one thing i learnt from the chinese culture it is wake up early n work hard and someday you will shine there is no failure to working hard from sunrise to sunset...

much of the above items that have been eliminated from my life are because of some of the decisions i made for myself....i am hoping to see if i can get a work visa n stay in usa n work for some years n hopefully create a business of my own after that...if that doesnt work out i will be going back to seek education...my original intension was to only apply to canada...but i felt that i should also apply to europe and also schools in usa and australia...i dont know what god has in store for me but i must try my luck...i have been very lucky so far...and im positive my luck hasnt run out yet...